Jesus! Today was just one of the most random/worst days in a while. I just don't get making people wait 2 hours and then not even show up. I'm just so over it right now. How about some courtesy and shoot a txt or even a bullshit call saying "we're not coming!" Whatever. And another thing. I have had you know who on the brain all damn day. I'm sick of thinking about him. I just can't seem shake it and don't understand why. The only time I wan't thinking about him was when I was on stage...cliche, I know but it's true. "I just can't seem to forget you..." Gaga said it best. UGHHHHHH! Please make it just go away!
-Adam Andrew Rios
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Friday, May 20, 2011
Scheisse
I don't know if anyone has heard Lady Gaga's new album but it is SICKENING (THE house DOWN). It's so inspirational. I want to say that my favorite song on the album would have to be Scheisse! Soo good. I can relate to every word of it. If only I could live without all the "shit." How much better would life be? So simple, and carefree. Oh, one day. One day where I don't think about him and keep questioning myself what did or didn't I do. I understand that we weren't right for each other but there had to have been something that was wrong with me that he lost complete interest in about 3.9 seconds. ANYWAY--moving back to Gaga. Honestly though, her album has something for everyone.
Here are a few lyrics from my favorite song:
Here are a few lyrics from my favorite song:
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Someone like you...
Here recently i've been trying to re-evaluate everything and everyone in my life, including myself. What I mean is, well, you know what I mean. Working the other night made me think, why am I single? I know i'm not the best looking, but i'm not unattractive. I've got a great sense-of-humor. I have a job. I'm friendly. I'm always just the "friend" though..never the "boyfriend." The bridesmaid, never the bride. I sometimes wonder if i'll ever meet the right guy. Is he out there? I've always been told not to go looking for him, but if I don't start looking I could end up missing him completely. I'm just not confident in myself enough to just--go. Go and do it. Someone, who shall remain nameless, told me the other day..."you have low self-esteem and you chose a career where you're in front of people..." or something to that affect. I told them, I chose this career because while i'm on stage I get to be someone i'm not. Someone who isn't afraid of failure, rejection. Is that sad? A little part of me thinks so. Why can't I just be happy with myself? I've been struggling with this my whole life, as far as I can remember. Either not good enough or not what they're looking for. I have a very difficult type, I think. Not fat enough to be the fat, funny friend; and too fat to be the love interest. Just once I would love to be the lead. The star. The one that gets the guy/girl. Whatever. I don't know if i'll ever get to expierece that. I know that this might sound like a pity party and it might be but I don't ever get to talk to anyone about this. Who would I?
How is that every relationship I ever start ends just as soon as it begins? Seriously. I started something in September '10 and before mid-November it was over. No explination. Was it me and he was just afraid to say it? Did I do something wrong? I can honestly say that I suffer from a attachment/commitment issue. As soon as I get a little attention, I run with it. Guilty. I'm sorry. I'm not use to getting much. Don't get me wrong, my family is awesome, but that's not the kind of attention i'm talking about. Someone who looks foward to getting up in the morning and texting you goodmorning. Someone who wants to text/call you during the day to just see how your day is going. Someone who wishes you a goodnight or sweet dreams. Does this person exsist for me? Is he out there?
Basically. I'm not happy with myself. I know I need to change if I don't like it, but easier said than done. I need something or someone in my life that is going to give me the inspiration to change. If you're out there, hit me up! Help me out! Lol. A very SMALL, SMALL part of me believes I've found "it." The inspiration I need. I'm just not sure if i'm, again, looking too far in to it. But I don't care. I'm going to use it to change...even if he doesn't know he's helping. I'm done. Thanks for reading. :)
-Adam Andrew Rios
How is that every relationship I ever start ends just as soon as it begins? Seriously. I started something in September '10 and before mid-November it was over. No explination. Was it me and he was just afraid to say it? Did I do something wrong? I can honestly say that I suffer from a attachment/commitment issue. As soon as I get a little attention, I run with it. Guilty. I'm sorry. I'm not use to getting much. Don't get me wrong, my family is awesome, but that's not the kind of attention i'm talking about. Someone who looks foward to getting up in the morning and texting you goodmorning. Someone who wants to text/call you during the day to just see how your day is going. Someone who wishes you a goodnight or sweet dreams. Does this person exsist for me? Is he out there?
Basically. I'm not happy with myself. I know I need to change if I don't like it, but easier said than done. I need something or someone in my life that is going to give me the inspiration to change. If you're out there, hit me up! Help me out! Lol. A very SMALL, SMALL part of me believes I've found "it." The inspiration I need. I'm just not sure if i'm, again, looking too far in to it. But I don't care. I'm going to use it to change...even if he doesn't know he's helping. I'm done. Thanks for reading. :)
-Adam Andrew Rios
Monday, March 28, 2011
So, it's been quite a while since I last posted but so much has been happening. Earlier this month two of my best girl friends came to the city. Things have changed somehow; what I mean is, instead of staying drunk and going out every night like we use to, we just stayed in and hung out a lot. That was nice because I had NOOO MonEY! Lol. But it was nice to be with them again. :) I miss them so much. They just need to shup up and move up here together.
On another note, i've been working a lot more this month--which is fabulous! The downside to that is all the fuckin' weddings I have to work. I mean seriously? How is that I can't even get a damn date but there are people every weekend getting married??!! Jewish weddings are the worst. They take too damn long, have too many customs, and have waaay too much food. Another thing I don't get is having 5 different buffetts during cocktail hour...they're about to have dinner in the next hour. What's the point of paying for food for one hour? So stupid. Waste of time and money, that's for damn true! Lol. Oh well, I do know that i'm not gonna pull that shit at my wedding. All I hope for is an open bar, good (cheap) food, and some nice centerpieces. HA!
What else has been happening....well, I found out the other day that I get to work the Bengal Tiger at the Bagdad Zoo after-party this week. :) The funny thing is, I didn't even wanna see that show. Irony! I am praying that I get to work some award banquet where Andy Cohen will be accepting an award. WOOF! Kelly Ripa, Kerry Butler and Rob Thomas will also be there. WHA WHAAA?!
OOHHH!!! Britney Spears new album is the SHHIIIITTT! I'm listening to it right now for like the 10192930300 time! It's sooo good. The whole album is FIERCE! Well, if I think of anything else that has happened i'll post later.
-Adam Andrew Rios
On another note, i've been working a lot more this month--which is fabulous! The downside to that is all the fuckin' weddings I have to work. I mean seriously? How is that I can't even get a damn date but there are people every weekend getting married??!! Jewish weddings are the worst. They take too damn long, have too many customs, and have waaay too much food. Another thing I don't get is having 5 different buffetts during cocktail hour...they're about to have dinner in the next hour. What's the point of paying for food for one hour? So stupid. Waste of time and money, that's for damn true! Lol. Oh well, I do know that i'm not gonna pull that shit at my wedding. All I hope for is an open bar, good (cheap) food, and some nice centerpieces. HA!
What else has been happening....well, I found out the other day that I get to work the Bengal Tiger at the Bagdad Zoo after-party this week. :) The funny thing is, I didn't even wanna see that show. Irony! I am praying that I get to work some award banquet where Andy Cohen will be accepting an award. WOOF! Kelly Ripa, Kerry Butler and Rob Thomas will also be there. WHA WHAAA?!
OOHHH!!! Britney Spears new album is the SHHIIIITTT! I'm listening to it right now for like the 10192930300 time! It's sooo good. The whole album is FIERCE! Well, if I think of anything else that has happened i'll post later.
-Adam Andrew Rios
Monday, March 7, 2011
TAXES! No wonder people revolted!
DAMN! Taxes shouldn't be that STRESSFULL!!! I mean, why are there sooo many steps involved? Why can't you just send in some info and be done with it? Nooooo! It can never be that easy. I spent 2 and 1./2 hours going over stuff that didn't even involve the money I would be getting back. Too much paper work if you ask me. Atleast i'll be getting back a nice piece of change. :) TYS! Rent for April is taken care of. HA!
On another note. Two of my BESTIES from college will be here this WEEKEND! OWOW! Kalyn and Lexie are due to arrive Thursday and Friday. Let the SIN BEGIN! Hahah. It has been waaaay too long since i've seen them and I need good night of debauchery. :D Don't worry...details and pictures will be posted.
-Adam Andrew Rios
On another note. Two of my BESTIES from college will be here this WEEKEND! OWOW! Kalyn and Lexie are due to arrive Thursday and Friday. Let the SIN BEGIN! Hahah. It has been waaaay too long since i've seen them and I need good night of debauchery. :D Don't worry...details and pictures will be posted.
-Adam Andrew Rios
LooooOOOO0000ng overdue first entry!
August 1st--Drive 36+ hours from Hallsville, TX to NYC.
August 2nd--Finish moving into our apt at 2AM
August 3rd--SLEEP!
August-September--Look for a job on Craigslist. Find a job on Craigslist. Get hired.
September 18th--Start my FIRST job in NYC. September-December--Work as much I can and LOVE the COLD weather.
December-February--Survive during the blizzards, save and scrimp to make RENT and PARTY as HARD as I could. LOL!
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That is basically my first 6th months living in NYC. I may have left out SEVERAL, JUICY details but you'll get more in time. I have had my ups and downs in the city but nothing I couldn't handle. My life has changed drastically--some for the good and some bad, but everyone goes through that. Right? I feel like i've grown up so much. Life isn't the same anymore. As bad as I want it to be, it's just not. BUT i'm super ready to see where life takes me now. A new love interest? A show? Something? I hope i'm not sounding like a lame, Hallmark card. I want this blog to be a window into my life. To show everyone what is going on in my life. To show everyone that living in the big city isn't that bad...if you have the right people around.
-Adam Andrew Rios
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